Caroline Wright

God dug me out of an awful pit of sin. When I was a girl of fifteen, I sold out to the devil and went the downward path. I left home time after time to live deep in sin.

I traveled with a carnival company, lived the life of a fallen woman, smoked cigarettes, and loved to get drunk. I used to spend my Sundays hidden away in awful places of shame. I sunk to the bottom. I was even connected with a crime of highway robbery.

I hated the life I was living. I would try sometimes in my own strength to live better, but would always fall back. Many times I wanted to commit suicide to get rid of such a depraved life. It was only the mercy of God that prevented me. I was so ashamed of how I was living that I tried to hide it from the world; I lived a double life. I knew it was not hidden from God, though. He used to talk to me about that life. I remember once when I lived near a church, I heard that song ring out, “Jesus, Lover of My Soul,” and I said, “Oh, if only I could find Him!”

It seemed that there was no hope for me. I tried many times to reform myself. I even went back to my mother thinking surely I could live right with her help, but Satan drove me back into that awful life of shame.

One day God broke the chains from off my life. My sister told me that God had done something for her. I said, “I wish God would do something for me.” The Lord led me to attend an Apostolic Faith meeting and I found the Gospel of Jesus—the power of God unto salvation. That night, after hearing the Gospel preached by the power of God for the first time, and after hearing the testimonies, God in His great love and mercy, granted me a repentant heart. The next day alone in my room, I went down on my knees and cried out from the depths of my heart for God to save me, and a light broke over my soul.

It was wonderful to feel that awful burden of sin lift and a sweet peace settle down in my soul. And the Blood of Jesus cleaned me up. To my great wonder and joy, God removed all the love of the world and all the vile habits from my life. It took the mighty God to break those chains! It is no cheap thing.

I went to work the next day and they wanted to know what changed me. I told them God had saved my soul, and they respected what God had done for me. I made restitution for stealing.  I had many wrongs to make right.

Nobody knows what it means to my heart to be right with God. I look back now and just wonder at how I could have been such an awful sinner. Oh, my soul is filled with praises—I was once a fallen woman, but my life was changed when God came in. I appreciate this Gospel!